"How I dream of Giverny in this lovely weather and envy you for being there, you have no idea. But I am a prisoner and must see it through, despite being completely drained. It's exhausting and I'm wor…"

"While you philosophically seek the world in and of itself, I simply focus my efforts on a maximum number of appearances, in close correlation with unknown realities."

"I'm so fed up with painting. I wish I had never started."

"I'm so tired of this life. I wish I could just disappear."

"For a month I have been unable to paint because I lack the colours. That's not important. Right now it's my wife's life in jeopardy that terrifies me. It is unbearable to see her suffer."